Recently lot bad news from friend, about family , relationship , financial, parent…Every shits that i know…non of it is good news. Everything just turn bad bad bad and worst.
Guess this is life , pick up the challenge , face it , solve it !
Do not blame anyone about it … shit is a test from GOD , pass it and make a new chapter of your life !
CHEERS UP EVERYONE ! WE CAN DO IT ! BELIEVE IN OUR OWN SELF THAT WE CAN MAKE ! WE CAN WE CAN WE CAN DO IT !
B r y a N`
9/20
“To the world you are one person, but to one person you are the world”
It might be tiny to that not important, less impact. But in somewhere round, something or someone it might be valuable, important or meaningful for someone. Depending how you judge it, see it. Like love, she/he might be tiny and not very attracted to others, but for you…it might be the whole world, from head to feet its just like very very special for you, until you feel is she/he is like the whole world. When you have this kind of feeling to someone, its mean you already fall in love to someone……
B r y a N`
9/5/09
This month is Chinese ghost month, Mum already mumbling and asked me not to go out so often at night. This month make me think back my father, my dad pass away when i was standard 5. I am 11 years old that time, kinda blur blur when heard the news my dad were caught in a accident, I still think that is nothing and continue watch TV until my uncle told me that is a very serious accident and might lost him. At the moment, I really don’t know want to give what kind of respond. I just recall at the whole journey from my house to hospital, my whole brain is empty and sit in there car quietly, as well as my uncle,uncle’s wife, my cousin. After arrive hospital, my cousin str8 away bring me to the ICU to see my father, when go in to the room, saw my father lying there, whole body was attach with tube. I was really really scare, doctor and my mum was standing there discussing something, I can sense something is really bad, never seen my mum in those kind of worried before. After like 15 minute finish talking with the doctor, mum come over hug me and told me that, we might lost dad because the organ inside my dad body was badly injured, and what can we do is just pray for it hope miracle happen. Been in the room for like 45 minute, everyone inside the room remaining quiet until the my take take his last breath and pass away, no miracle happen and I lost one of my closest family member. Went out from the ICU and sit in a corner and just do nothing, body was shaking, dunno what to do and thinking what. Just know that I already lost my dad…
Things that want to happen we cant stop if from happen, let it be…Appreciate what he have now.
B r y a N`
9/3/09
We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find ………..
B r y a N`
9/2/09
Aug 31st ! Merdeka … happy birthday to Malaysia. On top of that, i having a nice party with all my friend. Some of em is leaving to somewhere to work, got birthday boy in the party… is a fun night and i m totally relax, never think about stress of working , live … while just eat , drink and drink. Is a awesome party for the week. Lot thing that happen recently. Friend having love problem, money problem , life problem and shite loads other problems. Well this is life, for sure we met problem in our life, this is what meant to be. Problem is a challenge for us in life, is like when we play a game, stage that need to clear, boss that need to kill. We need to think how to solve a problem, learn from mistake , think about the solution for the problem. If cant solve with this way, try other way. Like we use diff strat for game, is the same when we face a problem, FIND A WAY TO SOLVE IT, NOT AVOID IT. Every problem do have solution, just need to think about how to deal with it.
And also ladies and gentlemen outside there ! HOW MANY TIME WE HAVE IN OUR LIFETIME ? SO LIVE HAPPILY ! WHY WANNA WORRIED SO MUCH. Like a series that i watch, the guy also mention ” we got how many 10 years to been through ! most important is live happily ! ” What i totally agreed with it, is true either we choose to live happily or live with full of worried that make your mood and life down or sad. Why should we worried so much , why should we bother so much, take it easy… Chill down and think how to deal with it, think it with a positive way, choose the clever way, pick the correct solution, face it and eventually the problem will be solve. Nothings is impossible ! If there is a problem, sure there is a way to solve it.
Quote for the day ” Live happily, problem is always not a problem” .
B r y a N`
8/31/09
Things are tough , life are hard…Just cant think of what to do, suddenly feel that life is so pointless. Sometimes will think that, why we doing this for… Ppl come ppl go, met so many ppl in my life…suddenly wanna find someone to talk, but….cant find anyone. Hmm, why got this kind of feeling, dun ask me why because I also dunno why I think this way…Mayb too much stress, need some space to breath.. I also dunno why I think of this , really doesn’t make sense…
B r y a N`
8/24/09
Time pass so fast, already 1 month I been working for DELL. Do learn lot of things in there, start to understand how to work in a team. Thanks to all my colleague and all the nice friend in DELL who helped me when I m in trouble. Well I guess every big company is the same, when you work longer, lot of things may occur..bad things , good things. From there you tend to understand hows the organization works. Some ppl do drag their personal stuff to work, doing all those hanky panky out from your sigh, like what I facing previous week. For no reason I been complain and labeled as a “Kira Person”, what does Kira Person mean? There is somethings like you do not like to help other and complain lot. Personally I am pretty sure that I am not that kind of person, I would ask around if there anyone who need my help when ever I am available. Sometimes this kind of issue cant be avoid, for some reason others will just poke you from behind and spread around about it, as what my colleague said we cant stop others from being spreading it, just let it be and do what you suppose to do. I am totally agreed but just feel sick about it, out from no where you been backstep for no reason. Think back about it, you will feel very painful when somebody did that to you, dint do anythings, but help each other, in the end this is what you get. But what to do, you need the job, you need to take it, you need to face it, you need to accept it…Now I understand working under a big roof is not easy as what others say. Everyday you are like wearing a mask as well as others around you, we dunno when they gonna do these again to you. Well I can say… LIFE IS TOUGH, but very lucky i met a person who helped me lot and also willing to listen what i mumble and now slowly we become good friend.
*Remember peeps, no pain no gain !
Bryan`
After quitting from my sales job, i am now working at Mak Digital Enterprise. Been working here for almost 6 month which is quiet surprise that I stayed in this company for soo soooo long. I learn lot of stuff at this company compare to the previous sales job. My roll is to edit the video taken by my company’s videographer, most of video that taken is from wedding ceremony, either Chinese style ,Indian or christian. I will explain , what usually i need to do with these video that taken from the videographer.
First things that I need to do is capture the video and convert the video from analog format to digital. I don’t actually know whats the diff between analog and digital type, the only diff that i know is analog video is more clear and the resolution is better then the digital type, I need to ask my boss more detail about the diff between analog and digital thingy LOL.
So, after capture the video and store into the comp. My company were using this software called “PINNACLE STUDIO”, video editing software, took like 3-4 days for me to get use to it. There is a lot of function in this s/w , like white balance , black and white , speed adjust , dream border etc etc. This s/w is not very user friendly , take time to understand how it works if u are 1st time using it.
After put in all these scene, the 1st things i need to make sure is that the sound is played normally as in not too loud or too soft. For this sound thingy there is like mono type, left mono type etc etc, just need to adjust the correct channel . 2nd things i need to do is check the scene there is any mistakes did by the videographer like the scene is too expose to light and make the scene become too bright, miss shot by the videographer like shoting the floor or the scene been blocked by somethings. So if there is any miss shot , i need to edit it like reconfigure the white balance, contrast, brightness if the scene is too bright and cut the scene that blocked by stuff. In order to these, i need to make sure that after i cut the miss shot scene, the movie will still show normally like “never” been edit before, this is the hardest part in the whole editing process and also is the part that require a lot of skill to do it.
After ensure every scene is showed clear and clean, i will put in those effect like “fade” , “miss” , “slow speed” , “dream border” to make the video more interesting. A part from that, i would need to choose the suitable song for the video. This is the most time consuming part for the whole editing process, as in need to make the video looks more smooth and nice with the effect, the video is already 80% done after finished this step.
The last step is putting up all the date , tittle, photo of the bride and groom, DVD controlling function for the movie. Final part is burn the video into the DVD and print the DVD with putting in the groom and bride photo to make the DVD nicer. Normally the whole editing process will take around 3-4 hours, some will take longer depending how long it the video been shot.
Wish all my friend Happy New Year 2009 ! Wish all the best for you all. Wow the new year eve party is awesome lol…Was 2nd time in my life that i drink and puke. Was a great night that all our friend group up drinking and talk shit, recall all the pass that happen around us, all the stupid stuff, joke that we done in 2008. Well some people is happily celebrating the new year, but some is struggling with relationship problem, money problem,jobless …etc for this 2009 New Year. Not everyone is happy with this new year, some hope that can go back to the pass whereby everything is just fine in the pass but not at the moment.
WELL I HOPE ALL BEST TO YOU ALL IN 2009 !
Hmm, i figure out that somethings must be done recently , i m doing nothing while eat,sleep,lepak..thats really bad habit … spending money while doing nothing , is a epic fail investment … as we all know , investment must have a return , if not it turn into a lost and become a fail investment … am just like the share in the market that the price keep droping slowly .. and become 0 …
HELL yeah , i need to do somethings to raise my share price. 1st – Find a damn job and work u lazy bastttardd! now only i know that is not easy to find a job … when u dun have a damn paper ( cert ) in hand … Every company want a educated worker.. As u all know la , i fucked my studies nicely and now i m QQ-ing about that … Recently i get some interview offer by several company , Hollandfries ( dunno how to spell it ) offer an interview for me as a cashier on this Thursday , while its not my cup of tea but i might want to try out while i m banging balls in this time. Another offer is from my close friend that his company is recruiting assembly technician , this offer is quiet nice but the problem i worried is that i able that job or not … 1weeks 5 days work , 9 and 1/2 hours per day , from 800 = 530 , OT on Saturday and Sunday , 1K++ salaries . The 3rd offer is used cars salesman , this i might like it … the detail about the salaries and other i not so clear about it . Hmm, anyone that read this give some comment about which job is better future …
On 29th May , Netcity – one of the big cybercafe in Penang having a DOTA competition .. Well , Somethings might suprise u all is that i join this competition but not as a player while as a Marshall LOL … 1st time in DOTA competition i join as a Marshall but a player . Things change lol , this is not possible is that you want to do it or not … Quit DOTA since last tourney on NOV 2007( SMM GRAND FINAL MALAYSIA ) 1 of 16 top team in Malaysia hehe .. Still thinking of last time when training for competition , train like mad , 2 days non stop training dint sleep just stare in from of the monitor and play DOTA . That time my playing heroes is support based , gaming is fun but no future in Malaysia too bad. While this time as a Marshall of tourney , my job is a judge or referee for a match … Like jaga player play game lol , preventing them to do dirty stuff like bug etc etc, and also remind them to saved game every 15 minute and also preventing break the rules of the match.. This might be fun , change a view from a player become a Marshall .
AT LAST WANNA WISH ALL THE HAPPY BOY IN THIS MONTH HAPPY BIRTHDAY . 28th, 29th and 30th of MAY , HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSEPH , MORGAN , EDGAR !
Coo|Gun `
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